What I Ate Today

Today I had two long blacks and eggs with smoked salmon and hollandaise sauce. It was yummy but I feel guilty for eating it because I vowed not to eat again until I felt hungry rather than greedy. I'm trying to shrink my stomach back to it's usual size, the expensive jeans I bought before I left Taiwan don't button up anymore and I don't know what to blame, excessive eating due to boredom, or this stupid Risperdal which I'm slowly going off. I'm also trying to quit smoking starting today, I finished a packet this afternoon and have not bought a new packet. They're such a ripoff anyway and I could have bought a whole wardrobe with what I've spent on fags since I started smoking full-time during my psychotic adventures through mainland China.

Good news, my housemate Alex and I discussed moving out today, and my other really messy and lazy housemate Julian owes the landlord over a grand, and Alex reckons that if he doesn't pay it back, he doesn't want to move with him (we have to move soon.) I suggested we get a girl housemate yay and he said we'll have two guys and two girls. It's all good. The place'll be much tidier without him. We're also having a party on the 23rd.

I feel like a fag right now. It really feels like a habit now. I stopped biting my nails, now I think it's disgusting. Maybe I'll feel that way about smoking too.  ¶ 16:41